down to 101.2 pounds....wish I would lose faster, i really hate waiting to get thin....anyway, bought some new dresses yesterday...so that was fun. My hips and bust are within the size zero measurements, but my stomach isn't. which sucks. I hate that it's my stupid stomach stopping me from fitting into model clothes. Mind you, at a tiny 5ft, I'm sure as hell no model anyway.

anyway, comments!!!

for Charlie: Technically I should have said ravioli, it's just that in england, ravioli is generally this tinned stuff with meat in the middle, whereas this ravioli that I had was just pasta wrapped around spinach and tomato, lol, so It's entirely my silly fault for not just saying ravioli :-P My brain just said "pasta parcels" and I blindly obeyed

also thank you to the anonymous commenter, I love feedback, and alternative ideas, I really value everyone who leaves me comments :-)

I've gotten into a routine over the last couple of weeks. On the days I go to college, I boil an egg and eat that (76 cals) as a way to please mum, and drink herbal teas when I'm thirsty (don't often actually get hungry, which I'm dead thankful for-I'm really only an emotional eater, and I enjoy the sensation of food.) Then when I get home, if i can't get away with not eating anything, I have a light salad, and maybe a small jacket potato or a small quorn fillet (one quorn fillet is 47 cals-they rock) and then i do schoolwork and cleaning-I can't stand to have a messy room- and then I exercise like hell until it's time to shower and go to bed.

On the days that I know i will get away with it, e.g. the days when I know mum is busy all day, I fast, and make pretend food mess for her to discover and be annoyed at me for. It's better that she thinks I'm inconsiderate and haven't cleaned my own plates etc than for her to realise I'm into this again.

I'm quite depressed recently...Exams are weighing down heavily on me. I find Chemistry REALLY hard, but i have to do it and i HAVE to pass if i ever want the career that I literally dream of.

Does anyone else ever think to themselves: will this pressure ever end????

Yeah, I'm in a bad place today...But I'm thinking thin, and smiling at the thought of all my fellow ana's and mia's in this world, and it makes me feel less alone.

Thinking of you all
Jemimah
xxx

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